Prompt 1/30/07: Do you have a box of old love letters?

No. I don't.
I used to.
I tossed them out before I got married - because they weren't from him. I'm not going into gory details, but I read them over and over all the time - even after I said "yes" to my husband. I don't know...what do you really get from reading them? You remember the good times and the sweet feelings. Then what?

They were holding me back so I got rid of them.

But, I do still have a teddybear from him. I'm not getting rid of that. It's in my girl's room. The sentimental value is gone now (I swear) but he's the cutest teddybear ever. He's rich dark chocolate. He stands about 14 inches high. He's SUPER cuddly. Jet black eyes with spikes of light brown in them, and he's got genuinely leather padded feet and paws.

Dreams, Best Times of My Life

I always feel so bad when people talk about their high school days as the best days of their life. To me, what that says is that they don't have any more dreams. They no longer have anything they look forward to doing. Life has just sort of sapped them dry and the only good times, the BEST times the BEST days of their life are long behind them.

What is sadder? That's a lot of the people I know. No one smiles when thinking about the years ahead and what they might bring. Long drawn faces are what surround me when we talk about the future. I am so glad that I'm not in that group. I still have dreams that spur me on and I still have great things that I want to accomplish. I not only WANT to accomplish things, I believe I can. That is not just saying a promotion at work, because seriously, I couldn't care less about that...I'm talking about things that are important and that matter to my personal mental well being. Things that enhance who I am and the impact I have on my circle of influence.

I absolutely DO NOT want to be 40, 45, 50+ smiling huge when I think about my past. I want remember my past fondly but I want to always be alive enough and have dreams enough that I smile brightly at the prospect of the years before me.

Oh, by the way, the fast is over and I did okay. I couldn't blog about it though, because if you have been reading my posts, you'll see that I was computer-less for weeks...the weeks that I fasted. Oh well....maybe next year. It was hard though....really hard!

I do not want to look back on my life and see that my adult years were the best ones i have had. I am gkad for the big dreams i have that

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No Computer - It Sucks Bad

Alright....so my monitor died - a quick easy death - Thursday morning.
I've been without a computer since then, since I had to send the dang thing back to the company to repair or (i hope) replace. Mental note: buy the store warranty so it can be replaced the same day.
Do you KNOW how lost and deprived I feel without my computer? Do you KNOW how many hours I spend staring at that screen on a daily basis? Well, too many to say here because I don't want to be looked at crazily *hahaha*. It hurts sometimes. I think that even though I use the computer and make $$$ from it (Digital Designs, right? RIGHT) I wonder if this 'withdrawal' that I'm going through isn't a sign that I need to step off.
Step off?? Me?? I guess so...maybe....but I don't think I can.

I'll be crying tears until I get it back. I will...I really really will.

Today I Ate Paper - Daniel's Fast Day #2

Really, I did.

I was having an apple for breakfast (because you kow I can't have any bagles or anyt toast with grape jam and butter on it...) It was so good.

A fresh crunchy crispy super-juicy golden delicious apple. I was eating away, then I looked down and realized that only a small corner of the white sticker was what remained of the entire sticker. Oh geez....

So, I don't know how paper really goes with this Fast..but I guess i's too late to show great concern over that now. Oh well...I hope the fact that it's white isn't like white bread *hahaha*.

Daniel's Fast Day #1

Well...today is going to be hard for me.
I started out ABSOLUTELY CRAVING MY COKE...but I did not break down and have one.
I need to start carrying around those water bottle sized packets of personal crystal lights. For lunch I had French Onion Soup, which was cool...except that it isn't exactly cold outside. For a snack I had popcorn while I was on break. Also okay...

I called dh though, and wanted some encouragement because this is (for me) a lot harder than I thought it would be. Well, he happens to mention, rather a little TOO nonchalantly for my tastes, that he had a soda today. I could have screamed, and I swear it was all I could do at that moment not to run to the vending machine and snatch out a coke right then.

However...I didn't do it. I am so proud of myself for this. so very proud.

Tonight for dinner we're having whole wheat pasta and soy meatballs. I think it would be okay, except for I am already thinking about not NOT like meat they are. In truth though, I can't say that because I don't really know.

DigiScraping News: Oh Goodness....there's the cutest contest coming up and the winner is going to win the CUTEST SPRING KIT!!!! Okay, that's all I'm saying about that lol.

Hooking Up with About.com

Not a long story...I emailed Sue and asked her if she allowed commercial use for her custom shapes. She said she didn't, but that she'd looked at my store and would I consider making kits for her to have available as freebie downloads on about.com.

I was so ecstatic about this that I couldn't say no lol, not that I'd have wanted to say no anyhow.

So, there you have it, I'm all hooked up with about.com. I think it's a great opportunity for new digi scrappers when they search digital scrapbooking and about.com comes up. They'll get one of their first kits from moi :)

today: Church & Fasting and me

So......We haven't been to church in quite a while before today - when I say quite a while, I mean about 6 weeks....that's a kinda long time if you're used to going every Sunday faithfully. Anyway, today we were able to get a ride to church (long story short, no car at the moment - transmission=bad bad bad) and we went. I am so glad I went...I never like to be beholden to anyone for rides or whatever, so I grudgingly went. Well...there was such a presence of the Lord during not only the Praise and Worship service, but also the regular service as well.

Tomorrow we start a corporate fast. Not a regular pray all day don't eat anything and just drink juice and water fast. Tomorrow, the church as a fully faithful corporate body begin a fast which is called "Daniel's Fast". This fast (as all fasts are) is a fast for consecration and comes from Daniel 1:8-14. Daniel refused to eat the King's food (wine and meats and sweets and breads). So, we do this as he did, for 21 days. Basically, you eat food but you take from your diet Meat and White Flour and Sugar. For 21 days. Fasts are always very hard for me, but I am determined to make this a year where I can see the Glory of the Lord in all I do and I have to commit to this because Lord knows I have many things to be thankful to Him for and I should be able to at least purify my body and eat those things that are good for me without complaining lol.

Hey, maybe I will get a revelation for a superhot kit during my fast. I am hoping it won't be too hard, because everyone is doing it and that everyone includes dh...so...for those of you that pray, lift me up that I might be able to gather strength from your prayers for this part of my life.

Me and My Space

I did it.
I went and signed up and got a MySpace account.
I promise not to get addicted (but how cool is re-finding the friend that you went to school with almost every year since 3rd grade and then feel out of touch when you left the city?)
I promise not to spend a LOT of time on there (but how else would I have found her?)
I promise NOT to neglect my duties and job as a Designer - no but here :)
If you'd like to see my myspace page (background is from one of my kits hehehe) then you are welcome: http://www.myspace.com/sharia76
easy huh? If you DO go there, let me know you were there.

Oh, I wanted to add this, did any of you know that I have 'freebie kits' on about.com? I bet you didn't....Here's the latest thing I've done for them, it's a really cute Christmas Kit, and Sue Chastain is (like me and few others lol) a Native Floridian!!!!!

Happy New Year!!!

Alright...I haven't blogged in about 2 weeks now (3??) and that's because I've had sooo much stuff going on. Getting my website up and going - no, not yet 'announced' but it will be soon. I am still waiting on a few items from my Creative Team to add to the site. I want to couple the opening of the site with a really great (lol, but still profitable) sale from my store - and I'm going to try try try to have a chat that coincides also. So many things to do so much stuff to plan out and plan for. Grace (Xsquisite Designs) and I are doing a collaboration kit which will be a gift for a contest she'll be hosting in March, so keep your eyes peeled for that - it's SURE to be a hit and you'll definitely want to be involved in that. This kit is going to be MEGA !!!! Papers, Embellishments galore!!!

Digitals is going to start offering classes.....so that's something to look forward to as well. Wow, I have so much stuff to talk about that I feel like I'm going to be doing a relatively RUN-ON-INTERVIEW much less a run-on sentence. My Tips and Techniques chat is taking a turn this year - hopefully for the better as I solicit interests and topics from my attendees (both faithful verterans and hopeful newcomers) about the kinds of things they really want to be able to do. Starting off again with the Monthly Swap here in January at Digitals - we swap photos with a partner and your partner scraps them. It's always a great way to get those photos that you NEED to scrap but haven't any personal inspiration or imagination to get them done, and in the same token, you lend your special scrapstyle to another scrapper that wants fresh scrapping perspective on their photos.

What else? Oh..yes...a little non-informational news item:

Christmas has come and gone: what's the big news from that? Well, We had to send Alexis' drums back to the 'North Pole' so that Santa would get his elves to fix the broken thing. The elves should be delivering the repaired drums by Tuesday. This makes my dd #2 very very happy - although she's NOT happy about having had to send them away in the first place. I got a beautiful gold bracelet for Christmas and lost it not 5 days later. That pretty much sucks. But, material is what it is, and dh got it for me in the first place, so the thought (which should be foremost anyway) is what should count - and does.