On Being Fat, Being Retired

On Being Fat:
          So, it's no surprise that I'm a chubby chica.  I always say I'm going to do something about it, but I never keep up with what I'm doing.  You'd think I'd be motivated when I look in the mirror - and I am...but seems like my high self esteem is TOO high.  I can't seem to be movitated unless I'm looking at the parts of my phsysique that I am not pleased with.  I even once tried taking a picture of myself...~sigh~.  I am trying to find something that will keep me going on the path. 
          I am surprised at myself in this - because I don't think of myself as one to give up on things, and it pisses me off a little.  I'd be more motivated maybe, if I were actually GAINING weight...but I'm not.  I'm just being steady at this current weight.  Good grief it's frustrating to know I need to do something but still not being motivated enough to do it.  I do feel good that I chose to forego the smoothie today.  Not a regular 'good for you' kind of smoothie lol, this is a massive calorie super tasty type smoothie lol.  Get with it people, get with it! lol.
         Oh well...I'm going to try again tomorrow to get on the weight loss train, ran and caboosed by Sharia.  wish me luck.


On Being Retired:
          I'm still happy with my decision to retire from kit design, but sometimes I feel my mouse hand or pen hand itching to do something.  So, I'm trying to take that energy that wants to create, and go printable.  Right now I'm designing printable card sets that are being sold out of Hot Flash Designs store at ACOT, so you can find me there.